Baby Maryam =)

Sometimes, we go through situations where we seem to overreact, where our actions don’t make any sense to the people around us and our own selves. We start questioning ourselves, thinking we’re just being silly or stupid for feeling the way we do. But if we look deep, in our heart’s core, we find the answer. Something that was never truly resolved. Something that left a deep scar in our young selves, but we neglected its importance even though we promised to change it on that day when we’re able to make our own decisions.

Today, I looked at your beautiful smile; I saw your dreams and aspirations, joy, and energy that can take up this world. I saw you for who you are, and I knew very well what was going behind that picture. I remembered your dream of becoming a writer, all these papers, pencils, colors, and all that mess you would hide under your bed. Though at the outside, ribbons in your hair, and bracelets on your hands, you would wake up, dress up for no reason at all except that you liked it. Today, I looked at myself in the mirror, a published author, but a reflection of something nothing like you.

And I am sorry,
I couldn’t help but realize,
I failed you,
Yes, I did,
I failed you…